Member Reflections: An Unexpected Journey

by Jennifer Wall

Being a part of the Divas has taught me more than I ever imagined and set me on a personal journey I did not expect. Prior to cancer, I was never an athlete. I had never been a part of a team. I had never used a paddle in my life. Surviving cancer makes you want to try things you've never done before, I think, and helps you find strength you never knew you had.

Learning how to use my body in a brand-new way was really hard. Simply not giving up was a huge milestone for me. Coach Michael and every Diva encouraged me and helped me. It's because of them that I did not give up. I have sobbed uncontrollably in the middle of the lake as I let go of my own pain and mourned the loss of too many, comforted by the love of women who have all felt those exact same emotions. No words are necessary. We have dug deep and paddled hard and pushed our bodies, making us stronger, celebrating victories and joys.

As hard as I've cried, I have laughed even harder with the Divas. And, oh my!, the peace on the water, when we paddle with our eyes closed on a quiet lake under a warm sun, the soft splash as each paddle hits the water. We paddle as one. My heart is full with the gifts the Divas and paddling have given me. I don't think there will ever be enough - or the right - words to express it.